Restore Balance in Your Body in 2020

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Prior to 2018 I yearned for balance in my life constantly. 

I yearned to be at peace with food and my body because I knew the incessant battle in my head was usurping inordinate amounts of my mental space and energy that I could be spending on the things that really mattered to me, like being present with my family and advancing in my career.

The cycle went like this:

1. Pants tight
2. Mental spin out: This has to end! What am I doing wrong?? I eat so healthy (mostly)... I eat too much-- I always have. I have such a big appetite-- I have to work on portion control. I don't want to give up bread. Low carb is stupid. I just need to eat less... but it's so hard... I hate this.... I should just go Paelo, that works for people...
3. Spend hours researching trendy diet
4. Go directly to bookstore to spend $$ on books on trendy diet because I’m anxious to start IMMEDIATELY
5. Throw away foods in my kitchen that aren't aligned with trendy diet (more $$)
6. Go to the store with my trendy diet shopping list and spend tons more $$ on fancy flours and new "super foods" 
7. Implement diet (insert eye-roll from my husband as he says "This again??")
8. Eat a bunch of food I don't really like
9. Stick with it for a couple of weeks, maybe a month
10. Log my progress daily
11. Research questions and obstacles I'm encountering
12. Join online trendy diet support groups 
13. "Cheat" a bunch
14. Beat the shit out of myself for cheating
15. Feel motivated every morning 
16. Feel like shit every evening
17. Start to lose steam
18. Beat myself up for losing steam
19. Decide this isn't the diet for me: It's not working, I can't do this, This is ridiculous-- who eats like this?? I think there's a better diet... let me do some more research...
20. Return to #3

This was my cycle. Over and over and over.

So what happened in 2018 that changed everything?

2018:
The year my struggle with food and weight ended-- permanently.

The year my over-hunger ended.

The year my over-desire for food ended.

The year the cycle of eat-shame-eat-shame-eat-shame ended.

The year all diets ended.

The year my mind-drama about food ended.

The year my mind-drama about my body ended.

2018 was the commencement of a completely new way of living.

It was the year I learned to restore the balance in my body with food and exquisite self-care.

The year I learned to restore the balance in my life because I was no longer spending any time spinning out about food-- instead I was engaged with my family, friends, career, and most importantly-- myself. 

In 2018 I lost 30 pounds without dieting I was able to replace all of my self-loathing with self-love which is the most priceless gift anyone could give themselves. 

2020 isn't just the turning of another year, it's the turning of another decade.

The results you have in your life today were created by the decisions you made yesterday.

The results you have on December 31st, 2020 will be created by every decision you make starting today.

If you are still struggling with overeating and over-desire, why not make 2020 the year that that all ends? 

For me it was the year 2018.

For you, it’s 2020.

Let’s do this.